Miss Independent

I have learned some major lessons this last week.  First of all, if my pediatrician tells me that I may want to have something checked out in regards to my boy's health, I will do a better job of listening to him.  G and N can breathe a big sigh of relief....there will be a little less "Rub some dirt on it" around here.

Secondly, I'm not going to rob people any more.  I bet you didn't know that about me.....many of you may think twice before having me to your home.  "Baby, hide the china!!  Keri is on her way over!!"

I am the oldest of 5 kids and very much played the part.  I put myself through undergrad and grad school.  I married a man who has traveled extensively with every job since we were married.  I have listed and sold two homes by myself after my husband has already moved on to the next location (that REALLY went over well around here).  I am independent to a fault.

When the surgery thing was becoming a reality, I had some very sweet friends offer to help.  I told them "no"....I can handle it!  My mom offered to fly out...."No".  My husband offered to postpone his trip......"No".  I am woman - hear me roar!!  

Now, don't get me wrong.  I love nothing more than being a rescuer.  If you happen to be in any trouble, I throw the portable siren on my car and off I go.  I love swooping in to save the day.....my red and zebra print superhero cape is being altered right now, or I would show you a picture.  

I have learned this past week, that by telling everyone "No", I am robbing them of the opportunity and joy of being a rescuer.  I know personally the joy I get when I feel that I have helped out a friend in need, so that really hit home for me.  

Then I began to wonder how many times I've done the same thing to God.  He is there, waiting for me to ask Him to rescue me and Little Miss Independent over here is too stubborn to ask.  I am robbing Him of the opportunity to display His might in my life.  He's not going to force Himself on me......He will wait patiently until I realize I can't do it all myself and then He will take the situation and pour His grace and mercy all over it.  

So, I'm turning over a new leaf.  Rescue away..........this Miss Independent is going to become Miss Dependent on The One that is much better at being in control than I am.