February 10, 2009

The Award For Bad Mother Of The Year Goes To...........

Me!!!  Thank you, thank you........thank you so much!!  I would like to take just a moment to thank a few people.  

My dear Laziness, thank you so much for enabling me to sit around on my hiney and do nothing.  I would write you a thank- you note or even call you, but I just don't feel like it today.

Oh, and Procrastination, what would I do without you?  We'll get back to that another day. 
Pride, it is because of you I know everything......absolutely everything there is to know about kids and how to raise them.  

Wait, wait!!  Don't start the music yet....I still have one more person to thank.  

My dear Selfishness, is it me or is it always about me?  It is all about me.......me, me, me, me, me!  

I wouldn't be here without all of you pitching in to make me who I am today.  I accept this award on behalf of all of you.

Crazy, right??  Not so much.  When G turned 9 I took him in for his well child visit.  The doctor told me that he has a bump near his ear drum that I should have an ENT look at.  Did I do that? Oh, no.........I did nothing, absolutely nothing for an entire year.  I have always had some pride in the fact that I am not an "alarmist".  This comes in handy when you  have 2 active boys......it takes blood or protruding bones to get me worked up.  I'm a "Rub some dirt on it and keep moving" kind of a mom.  Not something I'm very proud of right now.

When we went for G's 10 year visit, the doctor mentioned to me that it was still there.  I was surprised, I'd assumed it would have gone away by now.  I went ahead and made an appt with the ENT and when we were there we quickly found out that this wasn't a "nothing".  The next day we were at a specialist in the Medical Center with the news that G has a cholesteatoma which is essentially a mass that will continue to grow until it is removed.  Best case scenario, an incision behind his ear and an easy removal........in other words, it would have been VERY handy if this had happened A YEAR AGO!!!  Worst case scenario, the mass had already wrapped itself around his ossicular bones behind his ear drum and they will have to be removed to be replaced with titanium.

Tomorrow he goes in for surgery at 7 a.m.  My husband is out of the country right now and is completely torn up about not being here, but he knew we needed to get this done sooner rather than later.  I don't know who exactly reads this blog, but if you would pray for all of us, I sure would appreciate it.  I won't know until the surgery begins what we are facing and I am not a girl that likes surprises.  I am a girl that can't help but feel that she let her little boy down. There is noone else who will watch out for these boys like I will and I sure don't want G to suffer the consequences of me not doing my job.  

I am focusing on a Father that never let's His children down and will always do what's best for us.  Please grant me peace, Lord, guide the surgeon's hands and provide a quick healing for your little boy.


  1. Oh, Keri. I will be praying for you and G! Know that God is in control and is right by your side!

  2. Lord, I pray for healing for G. I pray for peace in his mommy's heart, and dad's, too! And, in his, obviously, Lord. Father surround this family with Your grace to walk thru this and Father, open their eyes and hearts to see Your hand at work. Adrienne xoxox

  3. Will definitley be praying for G & for you & your hubby. We have done 2 ear surgeries for both boys - nothing major - but still scarey. And you can't possibly have the worst mom of the year award because I am pretty sure it lives on my shelf a lot! praise God that he is faithful!

  4. Now Keri, as God would say...."have you learned your lesson here?" "When the doctor says get something checked out, get it checked out YESTERDAY!".

    Poor mommy..... I am teasing you, I hate that feeling of motherly guilt. I have it way too often myself. Ugh.

    I will be praying for you all. You are a tuff cookie....and we don't like surprises either unless they come wrapped in pretty red bows, so don't leave us hanging too long and keep us posted.

  5. By the way how can I get this kind of comment box on my blog, instead of the one that pops up in a different window? Just curious.

  6. You will both be in my prayers tomorrow!

  7. You will both be in my prayers tomorrow!

  8. Keri, definitely praying for G tomorrow, but also for your peace of mind. You're an excellent Mom -- oh, if we could all be like you -- and there's a reason this is all happening tomorrow. If you have a minute, check out PopRocks -- I just posted a little message for you. Love you much, my friend!

  9. Scot & Keri
    Human nature makes us want all things to be right in our lives and have the perfect childern. Even with myself I found it very difficult to admit that I had cancer and wanted it so bad to be something that would go away. Even though things may seem dark and gloomy know that if we look hard enough God will bring good out of all things in life. "G" is in my thoughts and prayers. May God grant you inner peace and self forgiveness knowing that you only wish the best for your childern. Heavens Blessings to you and your family.

  10. Hey Keri,
    I didn't even know you had a blog, and I just found out about G! I'm sooo sorry. I will be praying this morning.

  11. Keri, I am praying for you and your whole family!! Hang in there, God will see you through. Rely on Him, lean on Him, BELIEVE Him. "He is your constant source of stability; He abundantly provides safety and great wisdom; He gives all this to those who fear Him." Isaiah 33:6 NET

  12. G is on my prayer list. You and hubby, too. You have to find forgiveness and grace for yourself. You didn't intend for him to have to go through this. If you had known, there is no way you would have waited.

  13. I have known you since the beginning of motherhood. I don't know a better mom out there. Don't you ever doubt yourself, KerI. You are an amazing mother. Hugs and prayers, Tina

  14. I have known you since the beginning of motherhood. I don't know a better mom!! Don't ever doubt yourself, Keri! You are amazing! Hugs, prayers and tons of love, Tina

  15. Oh my word ... I am totally kicking myself right now, because I am just now reading my bloggy friends from yesterday. I'm so glad that his surgery went well today. I'm so sorry about all of this. We'll be praying that they got it all the first time!

    Also, try not to be too hard on yourself. I am very similar and not much of an alarmist either. It is obvious how much you love and care about your boys and have their best interest at heart! Obvious!



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